Isn't always 'bout you .

“life will be better in spring”

Once and Fo all .

Thursday, September 16, 2010 || 10:24 PM

Okaay , since I have time to update my blog .

I'll update 'bout something .

Physics Paper was difficult .

Can't even answer one question .

I'm sure tht I flopped tht subject .

A-math Paper 1 ?

Well , don't bother asking me .

I can't even do all question ,

but except fo only one question .

Tht only fo 6 marks .

But , fo sure I get 5 marks .

Th rest , well .

Sucks big time . ( :

Chemistry Paper was jst now.

Okaaay laaa , manage-able .

But , some of th question .

I kind of forget how to do .

Especially topics on Moles .

Tht's th easier topics .

But , I forgot how to do th question .

Shit !

Guess what , almost all th question only 1 mark .

Wahliao , if you get wrong answer .

Tht's it . What a waste .

Next week , will be my Science Practical and A-math Paper 2 .

Afta , will be gg hari raya outing with my Primary School Peeps .

Maybe ?

It's been 5 years since I last went out with them fo Hari Raya .

Now , it's like very uncomfortable .

But , nvm .

I miss them , I guess . ( :

Next tht I want to post 'bout .

I'm sorry if you feel whateva I written down here , hurts you .

This is my blog , so jst bear with it .

Since you can simply let everything on me .

I can , too .

Now , everything is ova .

You heard what my brotha said .

Truely , I didn't know he called you ,

and fuck you outside down .

I jst came back , and got news from my bestfriend .

This all things happened because someone saw you went out from here .

Tht's sparked th whole thing in my house .

My father broke down yesterday while talking to both me and my brother .

Yes , tht was th very first time he broke down .

Afta so many years , he last cried .

Yesterday , he cried .

He cried , begging me and my brotha to take care of ourselves .

How he sacrifice fo us .

My family knew tht I own you money .

My parents asked me , what's th money fo .

I jst told them , fo my use .

And I paid to you .

Oh , I will not pay anymore or do anything tht got to do with you .

Bout th Hari Raya outing thth I told you .

I don't mind you following .

But , I'm afraid you can't step into my house anymore .

My mother recognised you , and might jst asked you something hurtful

in front of everyone .

This time , my brotha will not stopped her .

My brotha should have told you ,

but I don't know .

If you followed fo th Hari Raya Outing ,

you have to wait downstairs .

You are clearly banned from coming my house anymore .

Make this as lesson learnt .

Lead your life well , and be happy always . ( :

Think of your parents , of your loved one before you do

anything stupid .

Like how we did , we did stupid stuff .

Erm , I know you're mad at me .

Because of this , and you message me tht kind of hurtful message .

But , I can't blame you .

I'm a girl too .

And was once with him .

So , I know how it feels like .

I'm sorry tht my bestfriend message you instead of me .

Afta I received those message , I cried to her .

I cried so badly , afta my father talked to me .

She took my phone and message you .

But , I can't stopped her .

As , what she type is true .

I'm sorry to say tht .

Like I said , since you can do tht .

I can , too .

Furthermore , this is my blog .

I hoped you understand .

Everyone got its feeling .

This is my feeling .

I wanted to reply your message .

But , those hurtful of yours jst got me think not twice but alot of time .

Tht's why , I don't reply .

Jst don't want to make things worse .

Don't worry , fo now onwards .

I got nothing to do with your boyfriend .

Nothing at all .

Like what I said previously ,

live your life well and be happy . ( :

Before , I stopped posting 'bout this .

Jst want to tell you tht both my bestfriend and brotha knew what you did to me when

we were together .

Yes , they are shock and felt angry .

Unsatisfied .

Howeva , they still thr fo me .

And , always be thr .

Lastly , I decided to be good girl .

I gave my last two ciggy to Farna .

Means , I don't want to smoke anymore .

I want to be th old me .

Yea , it's difficult but al least I try . ( :

Erm , yesterday went to sheesha with Keyreen , Mar and my Brotha .

At Bugis .

Yes , my Brotha allowed us to smoke sheesha .

We talked alot , talked 'bout spirits , life , obstacles and many more .

I also can't believe tht my Brotha can click with my Bestfriend tht instant .

I mean , he can get along with my friends .

It was also th first time , I saw him smoke sheesha .

From thr , I can roughly imagine he smoke ciggy .

Yes , he used to smoke ciggy .

Until , I think my father caught him .

Then , he stopped .

Hehe .

Pichas , will only update inside either mine or Keyreen's blog .

( :

So , do see yea .

Bye , take care .

Got migraine again .

Got to rest .

Bye .

Labels: done and said .

Thursday, September 9, 2010 || 3:37 AM

Well , tmr is Hari Raya .

Can't believe because ramadhan went by so fast ,

until I don't realise it's coming to an end .

Since , I'm here blogging .

I would like to make this opportunity ,

to say tht I'm sorry .

Fo whateva I've done towards you ,

didn't mean it .

Fo whateva I've said towards you ,

didn't came from th heart .

Fo whateva shit I've done behind your back or what .

I'm really sorry .

Especially towards my parents .

Ya , it was a shock news to you .

But , I'm really sorry .

I still have those "darah panas" in me .

So , tht's explain I'm being rebelicious .

Sooner or lata , I know and realise .

Therefore , I stop whateva shit I've done .

I'm sorry yeaaa .

And towards my friends , close friends and

especially my besties(BBG)

I'm sorry fo whateva I've done towards you .

Fo th attitude I gives ,

fo those action tht I gives

and etc .

Sorry , reaally sorry .

Okaay laa , it's a long post .

Update when I'm free .

Next week , it's my prelim week .

So kind of busy yeaa .

Take care .

Selamat Hari Raya , yer ?

Maaf zahir dan batin .